Remember

What makes it easy to treat people bad?

Some things you say and you can't take 'em back

What makes it easy to run from the past,

like a child runs from the dark?

Which is the poison and which is the wine?

The scent and the colors are so much alike

And how much of each will it take to decide,

when your at the table alone?

Where do you go when it's perfectly clear?

You might find your way but you won't find it here

What makes it easy to sound so sincere,

when you know that you don't care? 

- "Find My Love", The Avett Brothers

Yesterday, a friend's sermon reminded me how important it is to remember God's love. We usually run from pain instead of pressing into it and remembering Jesus. Instead of embracing feelings of failure and guilt and letting them point us back to the Gospel, we try to act like they don't exist or worse - we just feel more guilty for feeling guilty! That, I think, is the vicious cycle I have been in for awhile. It came out in tears yesterday. I feel like a failure... and it's OK. That means I'm human and not perfect and I need a Savior. I don't have to be right all the time. That's all I've got for now... and it's enough.